I get to miss work today because there were severe train delays to Milan. Unfortunately, it also means I miss the Men’s runway show

Being in Italy and having this huge opportunity has really made me think about how far I’ve come to get to this point. Just over three years ago I HATED where I was, not just the physical location but everything about my situation. I think that was probably the lowest point of my life so far, and I’m only 22 but trust me, I’ve been through more than most 22 year old’s!

Then I figured if I wanted out, it was up to me to get out. So I sent emails to universities asking if they’d take me, despite it being way past the UCAS deadline date. And I got acceptances from both the universities I wanted. And I left.

I will never regret leaving Singapore. I left a lot of very good friends behind, but I also got to start over, and it’s very rarely in life that you get to start over completely.

I love St. Andrew’s. It’s where I feel I’ve matured, I’ve become a much better person, and I met NYBoy – who is the most positive influence in my life (and who pushed me to go to Italy for this internship despite it being much more than I could ever afford!).

I realized a few days ago that it’s been over a year since I’ve been phased off anti-depressants and all the rest, and it’s because I got to start over – but it wasn’t until this year that I noticed how much things have moved on.

I’m ready to start letting go of my past, and it feels really good.

I know I don’t usually ever write about my feelings (or my past) but I heard this song today, and it is the song I listened to when I found out I was leaving Singapore for good, and the song I listened to on my flight over to the UK.

It reminds me of the long journey I’ve been on to get here, and how happy I am to have finally arrived.