I know. I’m bad. I haven’t updated at all since I left Brunei but it’s because I was waiting to get settled in and that still hasn’t happened yet! I went from Brunei to KL to Dubai to London to Manchester to St Andrews.

I’m finally in St Andrews but I’m not properly moved in yet, there’s a film shoot in St Andrews (oooh film!!!) so I’m letting one of the girls stay in my room for a week while I stay at Andrew’s for a while, which isn’t a big deal but Andrew’s house doesn’t have internet yet! So we watch DVDs at night, and I play the phone version of Pong on my BRAND NEW 3G iPhone !!!! all night.

I am also very very sick. I was convinced I was dying, but I went to my doctor and she just said I have asthma… what a geek disease. Asthma makes me think of Malcolm’s friend (from Malcolm in the Middle?) who has to take inhaler puffs every few seconds in between words when he talks.

Well, now I am that geek. I have two inhalers and a peak flow monitor. I have to do 2 puffs of my brown inhaler every morning and every night and 2 puffs of my blue inhaler whenever I find it hard to breathe and have mini coughing fits. GREAT.

In better news, with my brand new toys I should get better by Friday… FOR MY PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a pretty dress ordered on ASOS and have made sure I have nothing else to do on Friday night. It’s our housewarming party and a joint birthday party for me and 2 of my housemates. How exciting. My first party out of university residences, in my own house

I’m not a fan of the weighing scales.

I’ve been a little skinny girl since I was a little, until last summer when I came home and everyone was like… OMG you’re so chubby! And I couldn’t deny it because I was too busy taking all my skirts and jeans to the indian tailor shop to get them altered… okay I’ll be honest, to get them enlarged to fit my newly enlarged butt.

Out of curiosity though, and because NYBoy has been hounding me because he thinks I get skinnier everytime he makes a trip to Brunei, I stepped on the weighing scales last night.

Not a good idea!!! Because it’s fasting month here and we’d just eaten and my weight was up at 51kg. Compared to 55kg last summer, that means I only lost 4kg of the fat that I gained?! Impossssibblllee, I can’t wear any of the skirts I altered last summer because they keep falling off, so my butt can’t still be carrying all that weight?

So I re-weighed myself this morning, and I’m 46kg.

Which isn’t good either because now my BMI indicates underweight (I’m 5’4 tall, or short depending on how you look at it), and NYBoy being the overconcerned boyfriend that he is, has become even more determined to make me eat. Hungry or not.

THANKFULLY, I have the rest of fasting month to hope he forgets about my weight… and then we’re back at university and he should be studying too much to have time to worry about overfeeding me, right?

I have 7 days until I’m on the plane to London!

I am going nuts.

It’s about a week before I leave for the UK and I’ve already got a whole list of wants from ASOS.
These on top of my planned birthday shopping spree – thanks to my boyfriend who knows me SO well, I’d take a shopping spree over regular presents anyday!! The element of surprise is taken away, but it’s a whole day (or days) of FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!

ASOS has a new section called ASOS Red and it’s all big brand names for prices that are not so big. I LOVE IT!!!!

So far on my list of wants….

April77 skinnies

Unique Boutique prom dress

Bandeau dress

Check prom dress

Asymmetric ruffle dress

Indigo pintuck back skinnies

Black pintuck skinnies (FAVE!!!!!!)

NB: This is just my wants off ASOS, if I went into everything I wanted in great detail I think I’d break WordPress.

NYBoy’s coming back to Brunei.

I couldn’t sleep until 4am, I’m so excited.

And now it’s 10am and I’m already awake?!

Someone’s going to have maaaajoor eyebags picking up their boyfriend at the airport tonight.

I’ve been killing time, uploading pictures like this;

to this;

Click the new link to Photo’s on the top menu bar to see even moreee photos, I think my gallery has more photo’s than my facebook summer album’s… except the ones on facebook have a lot more of other people. Some people don’t like being on blogs, so I didn’t upload very many photo’s with things other than me, NYBoy and scenery.

I am so excited I really should be trying to get some sleep but I know I’m going to spend all day playing Rayman Raving Rabbids on Wii and painting (my new time wasting technique).

I love painting, it’s so messy.

I haven’t updated in SO long. But I just felt the need to brag… I scored 20 on my daily Wii Fitness test. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!

This summer has been such a test for me. It’s my second summer since being diagnosed with clinical depression, and really my first summer without meds. Last summer I stopped taking them around May, so their effect still lingered. This year I was put back on meds, although this time it was Prozac rather than Fluvox, but decided I would rather try life out without them. And it’s been hard. Especially the last few weeks. It is a struggle sometimes getting up in the morning, and I just feel really hopeless. But with NYBoy’s support I’m still attempting to move past it!

When we get back to St. Andrew’s we’re ordering a few Depression self-help workbooks off Amazon, so I can take recovery into my own hands because in my experience psychiatrists just medicate the condition and as soon as I’m off them, my mood plunges so dramatically, it is not good.

Some parts of summer have been great despite my switching moods! NYBoy has visited a few times this summer and I have a million and one photos to resize and upload! I’m thinking of adding a gallery to my website because it’s easier to store photos that way. I lost my phone in Thailand though, so that’s a lot of pictures gone. But we got a digital camera the day after so I made up for it when NYBoy made a trip to Brunei.

I really want to revamp this whooollleee website. My cam is my worst enemy when I’m feeling down, so I’m thinking about taking it away completely and just uploading digital cam shots in my posts instead (Yay or nay?) . I want to add a gallery and a couple of new snazzy wordpress plugins if I can find them!

I can’t wait to go back to university.